NOBODY MEANT FOR ME (03/10/2010)

(ARCHIVED FROM 3/10/2010)

Nobody Meant For Me

There's nobody meant for me. I was not meant for anybody.....
 Various characteristics I hear repeatedly are distilled in me, and I CANT HELP but believe I was meant to be lonely.

Its all a test.
 To see how long you can tolerate my schemes. Is your cup of me half full or half empty?

Am I too much of a bull or a bee sting?

Is my mind what should have been left behind numerous times instead of my heart?

Nobody is meant for me. I was not meant for anybody.

My loves have walked down this same sidewalk, skipped, fell and hung on my words as i talk
 I brought too many curves along our pathway and those who's hearts didn't turn them astray weren't my hearts to have anyway...But hers, theirs, and yours....

Nobody was made just for me. I was made for nobody.

After fighting for years for "love of the moment" and not "love of my life" my heart is still hung on strife of the "never could've worked" or "maybe's" and "mights".

At night my heart cries for a space keeper for the "not quite right", like i could die, Like i cant stand to try...

And its hard to say, but someone will have to ware me down.

Show me the love i already know ...and where it dropped off pick up my crown... and my heart.

Reassure me every ending doesn't have to be THE result of every start.

While building up I'm falling apart. Love .. for me.. has just been a tasteless work of art.

There is ABSOLUTELY nobody meant for me.

Trials and tribulations have made me unfit for ANYBODY.

So where is my Somebody?