I think she wanna WIFE me....

She doin things I aint used to. Not to put anybody down or anything... but we have all had our "bad" relationships. Partners where nomatter what you did or how you tried it did not work out. We have all felt as if we couldnt do another day, another moment, let alone another relationship with all the scar tissue and bruising that has formed around our hearts.... But she thinks of me.

Not just me but my family. Not like what a "girlfriend" is supposed to do but like what a husband is supposed to do. Not like "I have to" but " baby i love you, so i will".  I have always been the nurturing type so questioning and second guessing is the only way i know how to live. I have to make SURE things are done and are ready when need be. I have to protect all and make sure nobody needs for nothing... not once thinking that someone would want to do the same for me....FIRST.

To wake up and not worry, to be loved without question, to have things done, jobs accomplished and goals reached without hesitation... thats love. To have my family taken care of before i have the chance to think of what is needed... thats love. To want to do EVERYTHING humanly possible to make me happy and only wanting respect in return.. Thats love.

So fuck all these BULLSHIT relationships, arguing, bickering, cheating, sneaking, loosing....
Fuck wishing, hoping, praying, coping, and trying to see it through...
Fuck crying about the past knowing it possible once again be my future...
Fuck Being unhappy.. when I think..... Is Possible... that SHE may wanna wife me